Assist me in making a good decision

[AngelaSommer]

I've been officially a camgirl for about two and half years now. Unofficially, I've only cammed maybe 6 months, because I 1) Made alot of money, so as I could work very part-time 2) the problem, my husband. I really don't where to start, but it's such a problem, that now, again, we are sorta separated. The problem stems from his insecurities and jealousy. But, my half of the problem that I need some advice maybe from someone here, because I'm whacked. Meaning I can't handle it anymore. You ask, what can't I handle anymore? Being whacked, not camming and not making any money. I'm totally getting no where. He constantly accuses me of having an affair and it seeped into the camming business right away. It's really ridiculuous. I'm totally in love with my husband. And, I've told him, in between, my yelling at him; which lately has escalated. A total vicious cycle is going on here. And, I'm not going to blame porn. Porn is not evil in itself. I've spent alot of time with him before and after shows, etc. Not a lack of effort of my part. So, this is where I am, I want to continue camming without associating with his shame games before I get on cam. It's so hard. Actually, impossible. Am I alone? Maybe, but any advice is welcomed at this point in my life. As I count the blessings I have left, there are still too many to count. Okay, I've aired.

 

[AllexyaHot]

To the anon poster:
What you are really wanting is someone to give you permission to make the decision you really want to make. I recently went through the same thing concerning rekindling a relationship with my ex. I wanted to do it and I went around asking my friends opinions, not because I wanted their advice or opinion, but because I wanted someone to tell me it was okay to do what I wanted to do.

You know exactly what you want to do, so do it. Deep down you knew, before you ever wrote this post. You've probably consulted others opinions on other message boards or among your personal circle as well. None of our opinions matter, what you eat don't make us isht.

Anonymous, I give you permission to do what it is you want to do in this situation. There is no right or wrong decision, only what you feel is best to do given what you have to work with in this moment. If the result of your decision is not what you desire, choose again. It's that simple. ( and simple not always easy).