TW: BPD/Anxiety (and/or familiar), Selfharm, Fat shaming
Many people talk about the perks of being a cammodel, but what about the other/dark side? These following sentences are my own opinion/experiences in the industry, specialized to the cam world. Friendly reminder that my english is NOT fluent. I choosed to post this anonymously, because writing is the first step I wanted to make.
As soon as you decide that you want to be a part of the adult industry, you are entering a big roller coaster. People have their own opinion upon this topic, and that's okay. But what bothers me is that typical saying "Anyone who's in the industry is a fucking whore." Many people outside of the industry keep telling us how bad it is what we do and that we should feel ashamed. But what if you're not ashamed Are you a bad person because you are fucking proud of your accomplishments or that you have enough money to pay rent, food, clothes, to actually have a life? I don't think so either. Especially coming from people who watch porn on websites that upload stolen content instead of paying for it, but that's not what I wanted to write about.
Camming to me is a very stressful thing. There's the happiness and the rush, to get ready and to chat with awesome people who actually enjoy the time with you, getting their wallets ready. But also that they want to get to know you is amazing. It's both exciting and exhausting, because then there are these douchebags that come into your room trying to do some trolling. It's even more scary how they don't give up and some of them even follow you around, stalking you on social media. There's watermark, content protection websites and what not, yet some of them don't help everyone at anytime. That shit is scary and crazy.
When I first got into the industry, I was overwhelmed. I swam through an ocean of very awesome, beautiful and successful people. I've been impressed by how welcoming everyone is, how helpful they are, how they want you to get comfortable and to become a part of the community. As a extroverted, yet quiet shy and insecure about myself it's been quiet an experience. But there are many things people don't know. I suffer from a bunch of mental issues, which have been diagnosed many, many years ago. I went through alot of shit in my teenage years, nothing to be really proud of. So camming has been amazing for me, I could hide behind a new role. Well, I've always liked to be flirty, witty and teasing. So I could enjoy this even more.
I have had experience with fat shaming my whole life, but it's been even worse on social media. I have recently decided to commit suicide, but gladly it didn't work out. I'm very alive and very aware of my actions. And I'm ready to improve myself.
Many people talk about the perks of being a cammodel, but what about the other/dark side? These following sentences are my own opinion/experiences in the industry, specialized to the cam world. Friendly reminder that my english is NOT fluent. I choosed to post this anonymously, because writing is the first step I wanted to make.
As soon as you decide that you want to be a part of the adult industry, you are entering a big roller coaster. People have their own opinion upon this topic, and that's okay. But what bothers me is that typical saying "Anyone who's in the industry is a fucking whore." Many people outside of the industry keep telling us how bad it is what we do and that we should feel ashamed. But what if you're not ashamed Are you a bad person because you are fucking proud of your accomplishments or that you have enough money to pay rent, food, clothes, to actually have a life? I don't think so either. Especially coming from people who watch porn on websites that upload stolen content instead of paying for it, but that's not what I wanted to write about.
Camming to me is a very stressful thing. There's the happiness and the rush, to get ready and to chat with awesome people who actually enjoy the time with you, getting their wallets ready. But also that they want to get to know you is amazing. It's both exciting and exhausting, because then there are these douchebags that come into your room trying to do some trolling. It's even more scary how they don't give up and some of them even follow you around, stalking you on social media. There's watermark, content protection websites and what not, yet some of them don't help everyone at anytime. That shit is scary and crazy.
When I first got into the industry, I was overwhelmed. I swam through an ocean of very awesome, beautiful and successful people. I've been impressed by how welcoming everyone is, how helpful they are, how they want you to get comfortable and to become a part of the community. As a extroverted, yet quiet shy and insecure about myself it's been quiet an experience. But there are many things people don't know. I suffer from a bunch of mental issues, which have been diagnosed many, many years ago. I went through alot of shit in my teenage years, nothing to be really proud of. So camming has been amazing for me, I could hide behind a new role. Well, I've always liked to be flirty, witty and teasing. So I could enjoy this even more.
I have had experience with fat shaming my whole life, but it's been even worse on social media. I have recently decided to commit suicide, but gladly it didn't work out. I'm very alive and very aware of my actions. And I'm ready to improve myself.
