livejasminstrip
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So I was in county jail for 30 days last fall for a probation violation. I went through some really serious bad shit in there. I have epilepsy, schizoaffective disorder, anxiety and ADHD. My medications were withheld the first week I was there and I was kept in isolation. I went through horrible withdrawal, seizures and hallucinated for the entire week. I had absolutely no idea I was even hallucinating until a week after I put back in general population. Some other bad shit happened that I can't go into detail about but i was sexually assaulted. I also contracted MRSA and 2 weeks after I was released spent 6 days in ICU with sepsis; I almost died.
I came home to be told by all but 2 people that I was lying, crazy and told to not talk about what happened. So until February I didn't talk about it. It ate me alive. I began to think I was crazy. I became terrified of police and nurses. I never left my house. In january I called my criminal attorney about filing a civil suit, which he wouldn't take because his lawfirm is in bed with the county. I also confided in 2 therapists about what happened. One of the therapists diagnosed me with PTSD and said I had symptoms since I got home in October.
At the very end of January a woman came forward about going through the exact same thing I did in 2013 except to a much more horrible extreme. I had it so much easier than she did. She filed a federal human rights lawsuit. So the few people who supported me encouraged me to contact her attorney and see what my options are. I'm suing now too.
After I got home in October up until a month ago were the worst 6 months of my life. PTSD is the absolutely crippling. I had flashbacks and breakdowns the first month I was home but after burying everything until the woman came forward I had numbed myself. But after she came forward and everyone started telling me how sorry they were for not believing me, I started reliving everything over again, and again, and again. I'd have dozens of flashbacks and breakdowns a day and the nightmares and night terrors were horrible.
But a month ago I got a new psychiatrist and I started Haldol and minipress. I can't even begin to tell you how much better my life has become. I've had 3 flashbacks in 4 weeks. I rarely have nightmares. I don't cry anymore.
I stopped camming when I got home because I lost my sex drive and really wanted nothing to do with men. But this last month my interest is growing more and more.
I just wanted to reach out to anyone who has PTSD and tell you, it does get better. I thought it never would- it does. I promise.
I came home to be told by all but 2 people that I was lying, crazy and told to not talk about what happened. So until February I didn't talk about it. It ate me alive. I began to think I was crazy. I became terrified of police and nurses. I never left my house. In january I called my criminal attorney about filing a civil suit, which he wouldn't take because his lawfirm is in bed with the county. I also confided in 2 therapists about what happened. One of the therapists diagnosed me with PTSD and said I had symptoms since I got home in October.
At the very end of January a woman came forward about going through the exact same thing I did in 2013 except to a much more horrible extreme. I had it so much easier than she did. She filed a federal human rights lawsuit. So the few people who supported me encouraged me to contact her attorney and see what my options are. I'm suing now too.
After I got home in October up until a month ago were the worst 6 months of my life. PTSD is the absolutely crippling. I had flashbacks and breakdowns the first month I was home but after burying everything until the woman came forward I had numbed myself. But after she came forward and everyone started telling me how sorry they were for not believing me, I started reliving everything over again, and again, and again. I'd have dozens of flashbacks and breakdowns a day and the nightmares and night terrors were horrible.
But a month ago I got a new psychiatrist and I started Haldol and minipress. I can't even begin to tell you how much better my life has become. I've had 3 flashbacks in 4 weeks. I rarely have nightmares. I don't cry anymore.
I stopped camming when I got home because I lost my sex drive and really wanted nothing to do with men. But this last month my interest is growing more and more.
I just wanted to reach out to anyone who has PTSD and tell you, it does get better. I thought it never would- it does. I promise.