LittleRedBunny
Full Member
Yesterday I had a really exciting day on cam, even though I didn't meet my goal, I didn't even care. Today had been dead, which I was trying not to discourage me, but then this member I was talking to started giving me all this "advice," saying I needed to be more sexual, and unlike other times people have tried doing that, he just kept going. He told me "see, the room has gone cold" and "smile. everything is wonderful in costumer service land" (I had been smiling and laughing a lot, and just stopped when he started criticizing). I started doing this partially because I already felt degraded and dehumanized at my costumer service job, and I thought this would be better because at least I wouldn't just have to stand there and take it. I know I'm probably too sensitive, or maybe I'm too naive and idealistic, but it really got to me. Maybe I'm not cut out for this line of work. After yesterday I learned a lot about what I really want to do as a cam girl, and I decided it would be best if I just focused really hard on that to the best of my ability instead of trying to get comfortable with more popular requests that I feel weird about. I had resigned myself to the fact that I was not going to make as much money, and I was okay with that. I thought I would just work extra hard on what I WAS interested in doing and see if I got anywhere. I'm sorry for venting. I'm kind of embarrassed that I let this get to me. I AM on my period, so there's that, hahaha. Just wondering if anyone has a perspective they feel like sharing?
