Suemmy
Sr. Member
so I am in an odd situation I live at home with my mother. I know that telling what I was doing as far as web cam modeling what would not be the route that ppl would normally want to go for this kind of thing.
but what other options could I really do, when I started bring in paychecks and making money. and using it on thing instead of asking her she would have noticed. Just cause she is that observant of thing in her house. She has gone on and on....now about how she expects the FBI and or cops to show up at our door since she swears there are pornography laws in the state of Missouri and all I have come across when I do research on the topic is Child Pornography.
Not to mention I might be wrong, (a friend of mine sent me an article about this not that long ago about how webcam modeling is not considered porn its something else. so even states that do have laws like that do not consider it illegal). I wish my mom would just leave me a lone about this and let me live my life have privacy, trust me.
Not make me feel ashamed of myself for what I am doing. i mean yes I am going to school online right now for veterinary technican training. And she acts like I am going to admit to EVERYONE on the planet earth I am doing this or put on a resume. I have more sense then that.
she kept asking me " is this something I am proud of" truthfully YES I think we as a country are way to sexually repressed and that adults of age should not feel shame for being sexual. And enjoying it, and frankly the things I do that actually make me money are not that "sexual" anyway.
the only reason this was brought up between the two of us was because, I had told her point blank I was doing this not for her to judge and criticize me but so I was being honest with her about a new source of income that I have coming in. And ever since then she has kept throwing job offers in town at me....and incouraging me more then usual to go and apply for jobs.
And I can't tell for sure if her meaning behind this is " go and get a real job that is not you making smute" or if she is just trying to be helpful but frankly today I just got tired of her doing it and how it made me feel.
My feelings have credit what I want in my life for myself and how I wish to live my life as an adult is my choice not hers! and frankly I am tired of being put into situations where I feel put down by her. I try to be respectful of myself and her.
And I do not feel like I get the same back, all of my past mistakes are constantly held over my head. and I am reminded of how and when I have fucked up before.
and I really hate that she just assumes that cause I am doing this now. That I did not take the time to research this and make sure it was legally ok to do.
which I am still fairly sure it is.
If this kind of treatment on her part continues with me by the time I am able to move out of the house I will want to not have anything to do with her. I mean why do I have to go into elbrate detail of my job with her.....when I know for a fact she will not approve and it will make her mad why does she feel like she is entitled to know that information.
the only reason she would want to know that to me seems like it would be to put it down.
and to make me feel badly for what I am doing and I am tried of feeding into that game of hers.
I am being respectful to her being honest with her and what I get in return is prying more into my personal affairs that she does NOT need to know...and putting me down....
I don't feel like my being honest with her was a bad thing but her way of reacting to this all though warranted is really out of line and rude.
but what other options could I really do, when I started bring in paychecks and making money. and using it on thing instead of asking her she would have noticed. Just cause she is that observant of thing in her house. She has gone on and on....now about how she expects the FBI and or cops to show up at our door since she swears there are pornography laws in the state of Missouri and all I have come across when I do research on the topic is Child Pornography.
Not to mention I might be wrong, (a friend of mine sent me an article about this not that long ago about how webcam modeling is not considered porn its something else. so even states that do have laws like that do not consider it illegal). I wish my mom would just leave me a lone about this and let me live my life have privacy, trust me.
Not make me feel ashamed of myself for what I am doing. i mean yes I am going to school online right now for veterinary technican training. And she acts like I am going to admit to EVERYONE on the planet earth I am doing this or put on a resume. I have more sense then that.
she kept asking me " is this something I am proud of" truthfully YES I think we as a country are way to sexually repressed and that adults of age should not feel shame for being sexual. And enjoying it, and frankly the things I do that actually make me money are not that "sexual" anyway.
the only reason this was brought up between the two of us was because, I had told her point blank I was doing this not for her to judge and criticize me but so I was being honest with her about a new source of income that I have coming in. And ever since then she has kept throwing job offers in town at me....and incouraging me more then usual to go and apply for jobs.
And I can't tell for sure if her meaning behind this is " go and get a real job that is not you making smute" or if she is just trying to be helpful but frankly today I just got tired of her doing it and how it made me feel.
My feelings have credit what I want in my life for myself and how I wish to live my life as an adult is my choice not hers! and frankly I am tired of being put into situations where I feel put down by her. I try to be respectful of myself and her.
And I do not feel like I get the same back, all of my past mistakes are constantly held over my head. and I am reminded of how and when I have fucked up before.
and I really hate that she just assumes that cause I am doing this now. That I did not take the time to research this and make sure it was legally ok to do.
which I am still fairly sure it is.
If this kind of treatment on her part continues with me by the time I am able to move out of the house I will want to not have anything to do with her. I mean why do I have to go into elbrate detail of my job with her.....when I know for a fact she will not approve and it will make her mad why does she feel like she is entitled to know that information.
the only reason she would want to know that to me seems like it would be to put it down.
and to make me feel badly for what I am doing and I am tried of feeding into that game of hers.
I am being respectful to her being honest with her and what I get in return is prying more into my personal affairs that she does NOT need to know...and putting me down....
I don't feel like my being honest with her was a bad thing but her way of reacting to this all though warranted is really out of line and rude.
