bongacams
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I would have posted this in my blog but I doubt my cam viewers give a shit about something like this.
Growing up, my parents weren't poor but they were the type of people (much like most parents) who had the mindset "If you want something, get a job."
They always bought me clothes for school but when I got into High School, the school made it so we had to wear uniforms. Any kind of clothes I wanted that weren't uniforms, I had to buy them myself. I applied everywhere when I was in High School, but unfortunately no place would hire me.
I finally got a job at a Dairy Queen (only because my best friend's sister was one of the managers there), and almost a year after working there, they fired me right after I found out my boyfriend and I were approved for a house. I was fired after some bullshit happened with my sister after I got her a job there and she didn't take it seriously.
Again, I applied everywhere and no job would hire me with a big fat "Terminated from Dairy Queen" written on my resume/application.
So for a year now, my boyfriend and I have been living off Food Stamps which is real embarrassing.
My mom would give me 50 dollars every two weeks to help out with shit we needed around the house like toilet paper, paper towels, soap, etc. I would try my hardest to make that 50 dollars last which has made me real frugal.
Now that I'm camming full time and making better money than I was at DQ, I still can't shake the frugal out of me which isn't necessarily a bad thing but I don't treat myself like I should. I NEED a new webcam because mine broke, I NEED clothes because I only have one pair of jeans, I NEED to get my car fixed because it's been broken since last september, and I would like a new phone so I can improve my "cam girl business" by getting KIK or whatever smartphones have now-a-days . With T-Mobile, I can make monthy payments of $20 dollars until the phone is paid off but I just can't!
I feel like my money is going to run out just like the 50 dollars eventually did.
I keep telling myself I have to spend money to make money but there's the "poor" part of me in the back of my mind who won't allow me to spend any money.
Whew. It feels good to get that off my chest.
Growing up, my parents weren't poor but they were the type of people (much like most parents) who had the mindset "If you want something, get a job."
They always bought me clothes for school but when I got into High School, the school made it so we had to wear uniforms. Any kind of clothes I wanted that weren't uniforms, I had to buy them myself. I applied everywhere when I was in High School, but unfortunately no place would hire me.
I finally got a job at a Dairy Queen (only because my best friend's sister was one of the managers there), and almost a year after working there, they fired me right after I found out my boyfriend and I were approved for a house. I was fired after some bullshit happened with my sister after I got her a job there and she didn't take it seriously.
Again, I applied everywhere and no job would hire me with a big fat "Terminated from Dairy Queen" written on my resume/application.
So for a year now, my boyfriend and I have been living off Food Stamps which is real embarrassing.
My mom would give me 50 dollars every two weeks to help out with shit we needed around the house like toilet paper, paper towels, soap, etc. I would try my hardest to make that 50 dollars last which has made me real frugal.
Now that I'm camming full time and making better money than I was at DQ, I still can't shake the frugal out of me which isn't necessarily a bad thing but I don't treat myself like I should. I NEED a new webcam because mine broke, I NEED clothes because I only have one pair of jeans, I NEED to get my car fixed because it's been broken since last september, and I would like a new phone so I can improve my "cam girl business" by getting KIK or whatever smartphones have now-a-days . With T-Mobile, I can make monthy payments of $20 dollars until the phone is paid off but I just can't!
I feel like my money is going to run out just like the 50 dollars eventually did.
I keep telling myself I have to spend money to make money but there's the "poor" part of me in the back of my mind who won't allow me to spend any money.
Whew. It feels good to get that off my chest.
