Imperiallily
Full Member
I need the support, advice, and comfort from other models right now. My sister stabbed me in the back and informed my parents that I have secretly returned to camming "under the table" on Snapchat. I have been given the choice to stay in the home or to get back out on own two feet.
There is a long history this year regarding her and I. My family heavily disapproves of my desire to make this lifestyle into a career (for the fairly obvious reasons). But, she has consistently lied to my face, has gone snooping through my room when I am not here (she has already found cam notes, sex toys, thongs, and a wig), possibly has plotted with her boyfriend to collect information out of my significant other, and she just recently (this week) dug through my phone and discovered the Snap client and revealed it all to our parents. She also may know or will discover soon, that my partner is secretly supportive of me making camming into a full time career when the time's right, and he has been involved in filming/producing future content. He is also a part of the big lie; he has bought us hotel rooms to create videos and images and I sincerely believe now that she is "abusing" their friendship so to speak, to keep collecting information on my cam game/attempting to find out he's been helping me to achieve it, based off her deceptive behaviors. That in turn she would confess to the family, which will make them despise him when they love him now. I have advised him to stay away from her. My dad had an hour long talk with me the night before Thanksgiving and told me I have to choose between staying with the family (the requirement to start that would be to undergo psychological testing/drug treatment for any diagnosis; I'm anti-drug and have depression/anxiety already) or to make arrangements to move out again and to start my cam career in my own space. I have had a history of lying to my family about various things; I've only ever lied out of anxiety attacks due to knowing their conservative views do not match mine, and that they would chronically disapprove of many parts of my life, including this. I do feel remorse for my pattern of dishonesty, but I also value my cam ambitions as well.. but I do not know which way to go; I want family but I also want my own happiness and freedoms to chose what I do. I also want to flee from the family toxicity altogether. I have a condition (alongside mental health) that has made it difficult for me to hold a steady/normal job; I have considered recently trying for disability benefits, but this they do not know of yet. So even if I were to leave, I have no clue how I'd make it on my own two feet...again.
I am open to replies here, in PM, or my inbox. Any thoughts or opinions or ideas would be valuable at this time. Please. Help. I. Am. Lost.
There is a long history this year regarding her and I. My family heavily disapproves of my desire to make this lifestyle into a career (for the fairly obvious reasons). But, she has consistently lied to my face, has gone snooping through my room when I am not here (she has already found cam notes, sex toys, thongs, and a wig), possibly has plotted with her boyfriend to collect information out of my significant other, and she just recently (this week) dug through my phone and discovered the Snap client and revealed it all to our parents. She also may know or will discover soon, that my partner is secretly supportive of me making camming into a full time career when the time's right, and he has been involved in filming/producing future content. He is also a part of the big lie; he has bought us hotel rooms to create videos and images and I sincerely believe now that she is "abusing" their friendship so to speak, to keep collecting information on my cam game/attempting to find out he's been helping me to achieve it, based off her deceptive behaviors. That in turn she would confess to the family, which will make them despise him when they love him now. I have advised him to stay away from her. My dad had an hour long talk with me the night before Thanksgiving and told me I have to choose between staying with the family (the requirement to start that would be to undergo psychological testing/drug treatment for any diagnosis; I'm anti-drug and have depression/anxiety already) or to make arrangements to move out again and to start my cam career in my own space. I have had a history of lying to my family about various things; I've only ever lied out of anxiety attacks due to knowing their conservative views do not match mine, and that they would chronically disapprove of many parts of my life, including this. I do feel remorse for my pattern of dishonesty, but I also value my cam ambitions as well.. but I do not know which way to go; I want family but I also want my own happiness and freedoms to chose what I do. I also want to flee from the family toxicity altogether. I have a condition (alongside mental health) that has made it difficult for me to hold a steady/normal job; I have considered recently trying for disability benefits, but this they do not know of yet. So even if I were to leave, I have no clue how I'd make it on my own two feet...again.
I am open to replies here, in PM, or my inbox. Any thoughts or opinions or ideas would be valuable at this time. Please. Help. I. Am. Lost.
