clips4sale
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lol so I am being cheesy and cute by coming in and introducing myself.
I have not actually took the plunge in doing a show just yet but I am sure its only a matter of time before that happens.
I am used to doing things society would probably not view as ok or normal.
as you all can tell from my photos and current avatar.
I am a burlesque dancer/performer.
i love doing it, its a ton of fun.
I also want to get into shape and try out stripping for a little while.
so i figured I could start off web camming.
it might sound fake....but I just do a good at being performer. when I am on sage and in that state of mind...to a lot of people it could come off as fake.
But I try to put aspects of myself into it when I do it.
it without giving out the info of who I really truly am.
i get a lot enjoyment...out of I have even started considering the idea of doing dominatrix work. Since I am into BDSM already .....and I have known for a few years now I am a switch.....
I figure it could certainly not hurt me.
my best fear when I was younger was that I thought working in the sex industry seemed really alluring. BUTT I have always had a real issue with actually physically having sex with lots of people...to me that just felt dirty and almost like cheating. But then I found out about things like phone sex, camming, stripping totally legit sex industry jobs.
that did not have you going out there and fucking anyone and getting god knows what.
lol it will sound odd also. But one of the main reasons I did not like that idea so much either was due to.....
1. I have struggled for years with a sex addiction I admit to it and am trying to deal with it as best I can. I don't think that masturbating or working doing camming or stripping for me puts me in a bad spot with my addiction. Since in the past its been that I would just instantly jump in bed with people wayy to easy and I had bad things happen to me such as STDs due to that.
so I am trying to control how much I actually have physical sex.... so I am taking care of that.
2. I have been raped several times in my life and sometimes with some porn,it seems to glorify humiliation and the treating of women like they are objects and nothing more. (lol can you hear my inner feminist coming out)
I am dealing with the fact I have ptsd everyday of my life....and I felt like doing camming or stripping, or burlesque like I am would help me feel like I am pushing past my past.
which is what I want...I just don't want to do things that will put me on a path where I possibly put myself emotionally or physically at risk again.
sorry for the long winded intro.
I am happy to be here and hope to make great new friends with the new found job/career I am starting.
I have not actually took the plunge in doing a show just yet but I am sure its only a matter of time before that happens.
I am used to doing things society would probably not view as ok or normal.
as you all can tell from my photos and current avatar.
I am a burlesque dancer/performer.
i love doing it, its a ton of fun.
I also want to get into shape and try out stripping for a little while.
so i figured I could start off web camming.
it might sound fake....but I just do a good at being performer. when I am on sage and in that state of mind...to a lot of people it could come off as fake.
But I try to put aspects of myself into it when I do it.
it without giving out the info of who I really truly am.
i get a lot enjoyment...out of I have even started considering the idea of doing dominatrix work. Since I am into BDSM already .....and I have known for a few years now I am a switch.....
I figure it could certainly not hurt me.
my best fear when I was younger was that I thought working in the sex industry seemed really alluring. BUTT I have always had a real issue with actually physically having sex with lots of people...to me that just felt dirty and almost like cheating. But then I found out about things like phone sex, camming, stripping totally legit sex industry jobs.
that did not have you going out there and fucking anyone and getting god knows what.
lol it will sound odd also. But one of the main reasons I did not like that idea so much either was due to.....
1. I have struggled for years with a sex addiction I admit to it and am trying to deal with it as best I can. I don't think that masturbating or working doing camming or stripping for me puts me in a bad spot with my addiction. Since in the past its been that I would just instantly jump in bed with people wayy to easy and I had bad things happen to me such as STDs due to that.
so I am trying to control how much I actually have physical sex.... so I am taking care of that.
2. I have been raped several times in my life and sometimes with some porn,it seems to glorify humiliation and the treating of women like they are objects and nothing more. (lol can you hear my inner feminist coming out)
I am dealing with the fact I have ptsd everyday of my life....and I felt like doing camming or stripping, or burlesque like I am would help me feel like I am pushing past my past.
which is what I want...I just don't want to do things that will put me on a path where I possibly put myself emotionally or physically at risk again.
sorry for the long winded intro.
I am happy to be here and hope to make great new friends with the new found job/career I am starting.
