Sexuality, Shame, Camming, and Telling Others

[nicolebella]

I am curious if anyone else has similar experiences to me?

I grew up in a conservative area and went to a Catholic school, so any orientation other than straight was looked at with great disgust. In high school, a couple girls stole my journal and discovered I am bisexual. They beat me up for being a "whore" and it got around the entire school.

Fast forward I finished college and moved to a bigger city... and hate my job. So I started camming. No one but my significant other knows I cam. I have this shame/fear that people will find out what I do and look down at me. It is kinda the same feeling I had in high school.

It is kind of a conundrum because when I cam I do not feel shame, but the idea of telling others scares me. I know people in my family would disown me.

My partner says things like, "Sometimes I wish I could tell my friends you cam, because you have great stories!" So there is not any shame from his side.

Anyone else like to vent?

 

[rozlynn]

I wish that I had something to say to you to make you feel better about this situation. All I can say is that I am the kind of person that does not care what anyone thinks of me. I told my friends and my family. Some people don't mind and some people don't agree with it but this is my life, not anyone else's. As long as I am happy, that is all that matters at the end of the day. You only have one life and it would suck worrying all of the time what others think of you. I hope that one day you will get to this point and I am here for you if you need someone to talk to. You are definitely not alone!