It helped me to think about it in terms of, "I'm only going to be online for 10 minutes." A few minutes into being online, I'm less anxious.
Streamate was very forgiving for this, I could log on with a gold show goal and that momentum would keep me online.
But it's still a debilitating problem for me. Onlyfans + manyvids has been a savior even though I still feel too anxious to make content most days. So if you're not already, please look into anything that gives you passive income, because there's nothing worse than those days were you're having anxiety about going on cam and you know you really, really need the money!
Edit: also the longer time that passes since you were last online, the harder it is to get online again.
Edit 2: also also, ask yourself, what IS the worst thing that can happen? For me, it's a silent room. But I'm always pleasantly surprised at regulars happy to see me online again.
If being in front of a camera is hard but you're ok with being online, you can try looking into skype show sites. Skyprivate helps me because it's pay-per-minute, whereas prepaid shows have given me too many anxiety attacks at this point to consider any more. You have to discover what works for you.
