Thought i would share the words from my blog with everyone
Ah... it feels so good to be back! The year started out in a very awful way I had a nasty cold that lasted a dreadful three weeks. From there i sank into a bit of a depression( something i have battled my whole life)which made camming for me a bit difficult. Add to all of that the fact that i am going thru menopause and it all adds up to nothing good. With the fresh breath of February I have the deadness of January all put to the past. I have been feeling good, no more cold. I have managed to get control of my depression with a series of TED Talks(online education), running everyday and some alternative medicine. Menopause treatments with hormones and DHEA...ah... I want to have sex again and a lot of it. I had lost myself there in the lust for money. I think that we Cam Models fall prey to this idea that if you are a Cam Model you must in fact become a bit of a porn star. You have to do all of these things, to make more money. Please understand that the money i do make is very important it is the main income in my household right now. But some time spend searching of my soul revealed to me that i had fallen in lust with money and it took all of the joy out of my Cam Modeling and much more... life if you will. What had always been most important to me in life was the things that money could not buy. Somewhere i had lost who i really was the past four years for me have been on a true walk of the famous yellow brick road and like Dorthy i had to go thru much to realize that i had the ruby slippers at my disposal, to realize i have had the power within myself and that it was not something that could be purchased with currency. These days i have BALANCE, something that for a lot of my life had been the elusive trophy . The other day while i was on Cam, i felt that sweet release... yes it was an orgasm... yes i allowed myself to really be in the moment and enjoy my job. I realized that from hence forth there is great value in what i do on Streamate, or on Cam if you will. There is no need for me worry about making movies, sex with so and so... to make a personal site to have clips for sale... blah blah blah.... Because the truth of it is .... I am not a Porn Star, and at a very deep personal level and with much soul searching i know with all of my sober being that i am meant to be an AWESOME Wife, Mom, Grandmother, Photographer and yes an exciting Cam Model!!!! So pull up your computer, ipad, tablet or even your phone and Come have some fun with me i promise you a great time and a happy smiling Cam Model... You now get the REAL Me!
Ah... it feels so good to be back! The year started out in a very awful way I had a nasty cold that lasted a dreadful three weeks. From there i sank into a bit of a depression( something i have battled my whole life)which made camming for me a bit difficult. Add to all of that the fact that i am going thru menopause and it all adds up to nothing good. With the fresh breath of February I have the deadness of January all put to the past. I have been feeling good, no more cold. I have managed to get control of my depression with a series of TED Talks(online education), running everyday and some alternative medicine. Menopause treatments with hormones and DHEA...ah... I want to have sex again and a lot of it. I had lost myself there in the lust for money. I think that we Cam Models fall prey to this idea that if you are a Cam Model you must in fact become a bit of a porn star. You have to do all of these things, to make more money. Please understand that the money i do make is very important it is the main income in my household right now. But some time spend searching of my soul revealed to me that i had fallen in lust with money and it took all of the joy out of my Cam Modeling and much more... life if you will. What had always been most important to me in life was the things that money could not buy. Somewhere i had lost who i really was the past four years for me have been on a true walk of the famous yellow brick road and like Dorthy i had to go thru much to realize that i had the ruby slippers at my disposal, to realize i have had the power within myself and that it was not something that could be purchased with currency. These days i have BALANCE, something that for a lot of my life had been the elusive trophy . The other day while i was on Cam, i felt that sweet release... yes it was an orgasm... yes i allowed myself to really be in the moment and enjoy my job. I realized that from hence forth there is great value in what i do on Streamate, or on Cam if you will. There is no need for me worry about making movies, sex with so and so... to make a personal site to have clips for sale... blah blah blah.... Because the truth of it is .... I am not a Porn Star, and at a very deep personal level and with much soul searching i know with all of my sober being that i am meant to be an AWESOME Wife, Mom, Grandmother, Photographer and yes an exciting Cam Model!!!! So pull up your computer, ipad, tablet or even your phone and Come have some fun with me i promise you a great time and a happy smiling Cam Model... You now get the REAL Me!