I had been dating this guy for a week and a half. Last night we got into a huge fight on the phone. We were both drinking.
First, I had literally listened to him for hours whine about the horrible life he thinks he had when I needed to be camming.
In an effort to turn the conversation more positive, I started talking about my dreams to travel the world. I had told him all about my plans to get an RV, and when I am done travelling the US, then I'll travel overseas.
He said, "Where are you going to get a million dollars to travel the world?" I said, "What are you talking about, a million dollars? I'm getting a pop-up camper and a pickup truck and I can stay at resorts for just $350 a month..." He kept cutting me off. "But you are talking about travelling the world. It is $3,000 just for one trip." I said "Not if you take a cruise. Cruises are cheap if you book them in advance." He said, "Cruises are at least 7 days." I said, "That's not true, they have 5 day and 3 day cruises, like to the Caribbean. I've done my research." He said, "You don't need to be thinking about travelling the world right now when you need to focus on paying your rent this month." I said, "NO SHIT SHERLOCK! I know I need to pay my rent! I am not an idiot! I'm talking about my future dreams, and don't crush my dreams, they give me hope." He said, "I'm just trying to bring you back down to reality."
This same conversation went on over a period of 2 hours and 3 separate phone calls where we had hung up on each other. I was worked up to the point where I was crying and screaming. He kept harping on me about my rent, as if I don't know that I need to pay it. As if I don't worry about it every day. As if I am some irresponsible person who is going to spend thousands of dollars travelling and not even pay my rent. Of course I need to pay my rent first. DUH. I wish I had never even told him I was behind on my rent because now he is holding it over my head.
Then he started the barrage of text messages saying he was sorry and that he thought I was amazing. I went to bed. Woke up this morning and saw more texts apologizing and talking about his feelings for me etc. I said I accepted the apology but I was really still pissed. These kind of fights happened all the time in my 2nd marriage. I hate to fight, I don't like the stress of getting that worked up. The weird thing is, that this guy seems more into me since the fight, as if he got off on it.
So I just sent him a message ending the relationship. There is just no point in being with someone whose behavior makes me feel bad and it is affecting my camming. I can't get on cam when I am upset and I have been crying a lot since I met him.
First, I had literally listened to him for hours whine about the horrible life he thinks he had when I needed to be camming.
In an effort to turn the conversation more positive, I started talking about my dreams to travel the world. I had told him all about my plans to get an RV, and when I am done travelling the US, then I'll travel overseas.
He said, "Where are you going to get a million dollars to travel the world?" I said, "What are you talking about, a million dollars? I'm getting a pop-up camper and a pickup truck and I can stay at resorts for just $350 a month..." He kept cutting me off. "But you are talking about travelling the world. It is $3,000 just for one trip." I said "Not if you take a cruise. Cruises are cheap if you book them in advance." He said, "Cruises are at least 7 days." I said, "That's not true, they have 5 day and 3 day cruises, like to the Caribbean. I've done my research." He said, "You don't need to be thinking about travelling the world right now when you need to focus on paying your rent this month." I said, "NO SHIT SHERLOCK! I know I need to pay my rent! I am not an idiot! I'm talking about my future dreams, and don't crush my dreams, they give me hope." He said, "I'm just trying to bring you back down to reality."
This same conversation went on over a period of 2 hours and 3 separate phone calls where we had hung up on each other. I was worked up to the point where I was crying and screaming. He kept harping on me about my rent, as if I don't know that I need to pay it. As if I don't worry about it every day. As if I am some irresponsible person who is going to spend thousands of dollars travelling and not even pay my rent. Of course I need to pay my rent first. DUH. I wish I had never even told him I was behind on my rent because now he is holding it over my head.
Then he started the barrage of text messages saying he was sorry and that he thought I was amazing. I went to bed. Woke up this morning and saw more texts apologizing and talking about his feelings for me etc. I said I accepted the apology but I was really still pissed. These kind of fights happened all the time in my 2nd marriage. I hate to fight, I don't like the stress of getting that worked up. The weird thing is, that this guy seems more into me since the fight, as if he got off on it.
So I just sent him a message ending the relationship. There is just no point in being with someone whose behavior makes me feel bad and it is affecting my camming. I can't get on cam when I am upset and I have been crying a lot since I met him.
