Self-esteem Issues

[asiancammodel]

This gig has been great for my self-esteem. Guys telling me I'm gorgeous, funny, sexy. They want to meet me, fuck me, marry me. Yada yada.....
I've got to admit, on cam I look really good (especially for my age).

In real life, not so much. All the flaws that are hidden with layers of make-up and lashes, costuming, hair pieces, etc. aren't realistic for a woman my age to wear out and about in real life. To me, in my real life I look like I'm my real age (50) *sigh*

It's weird to be loved and adored in my online fantasy webcam world, but feel bad about myself in real life.

Maybe it's an age thing?
Am I the only one who feels 'less than' in my real life, compared to my 'glamorous' on cam persona?

 

[camsodafan]

Depends on the day for me, sometimes when I have 600+ users in the room and not only is no one tipping, but no one is conversing, I can feel like a very inferior broadcaster. But after broadcasting for 10 months, I have found and continue to discover small techniques to help cope with these scenarios. I think a lot of my feelings are mixed currently though, as I have been going through a lot medically lately and it's really affecting my broadcasting life as well as real life. So my opinions may be currently skewed.

However, on a much simpler note, I will say that it is always a relief that I can log into my room, and no matter what have at least 100+ viewers sitting with me.

What REALLY does it for me is the few loyal and genuine viewers I have that not only constantly contribute (whether large or small) but really just freaking care about me. I have about 5 viewers I keep in regular contact with just for fun, because they just care about me too much. They don't expect me to respond, but appreciate when I do. They care to know I am well, especially with my issues, and that's really nice to know especially in a time like this. That someone I have never even met, cares about me, my health, and my well-being.