stressed out and kind of pissed.

[deisystar]

so I have had mental health issues for a while now, and I am pretty good at having a decent handle on them in most cases of things espically in the context of my jobs.

lol I have a very high work ethic of what is professional in jobs and what is not.

but lately I have been really struggling with having two jobs being able to get a hold of my therapist and make time to go in and see my therapist like I need to ...and my depression is just ripping me apart inside.

I almost ended up seeing if checking myself into a pysch ward would or would not be the best option for me and honestly.

the idea of it potentially happening is not entirely off the table as of right now.

and I am already getting phone call up the butt from both my jobs.....already today.

so I am kind of stressed a bit about how I would find time this next week to go in and see my doctor and make sure I can do..all this the way i need to. But frankly....at this point I have to do this. Going in for my jobs and doing a good job at my jobs...is an important thing I realize that.

but taking care of my self and my mental health is pressing also and i need to make sure I am doing what I need to do for myself. If I end up losing my jobs over something as dumb as saying 'hey I need to take care of my self and my health" then in my mind maybe that job was not a good place for me to be in to begin with.

 

[jullyenn3]

Do you work for a corporation at all? Oftentimes they assist with mental health issues as they tend to have large HR departments-- I was a manager at a large corporation before this, and was able to help a few team members in that way. Additionally, is your immediate supervisor aware of your issues, at least in that it's currently effecting you?

You are very right. If they don't help you, then it's not a good fit. I really hope you're able to find the care and help that you both need and deserve! Internet hugs!