Imperiallily
Full Member
Hello everyone,im writing here in hope that someone who went thru or is facing my current issue will find some time to share some solutions,ideas regarding the matter.
I cammed for 6 years now 4 at home then paused 1 year then last 2 years at a studio.
I mention that im the premium type of girl with no shows on free.
I reached a point where my patience and tolerance towards majority of members have decreased drastically and i become easily irritated.
Working in a studio helps me because i stick to a program and i hold the owners in high regards,they treated me fair and square, from home i barely managed 5 hours online per day now here i stay at least 8 sometimes reaching 10+ hours. Restrictions and rules help.
Unfortunately ever since last year around october i started to feel a certain anger towards the rude peasantry that walks in my room,my energy drains rapidly if i sit for hours in vain,maybe one or two privates from time to time. What kills meSmiley (N) the most is the waiting,eternal waiting for the type of member that takes out the best in me. Smiley :8 IS WRONG i know ...i should fake it til i make it believable and i should not care about how they are,afterall is my interest to have everyone's money not just a certain type that makes me feel good besides the financial side. I can spend 6 hours which i did with people in private both show and talking about anything really, i have patience for listening and giving advices,discovering someone,i kinda take it and took it to a deeper level and thats what i try to target...lately i cant have the law of attraction on my side because of how i feel,hence i cant attract that anymore.Smiley :O
I think i have a little mental breakdown and its very visible ...
My question is...how do i get back on the horse again? How can i strenghten my tolerance and patience,how can a girl who's more glamour than porno reduce the waiting time and attract again more into her room,also the "right guys" ? I would be greatful to hear your input,struggles and recommendations. Thank you and have a lovely shift!
P.S: an extended vacation ( 2weeks+ ) isnt possible,not at the moment,and i need to be strong for at least another 1,5 years.
I cammed for 6 years now 4 at home then paused 1 year then last 2 years at a studio.
I mention that im the premium type of girl with no shows on free.
I reached a point where my patience and tolerance towards majority of members have decreased drastically and i become easily irritated.
Working in a studio helps me because i stick to a program and i hold the owners in high regards,they treated me fair and square, from home i barely managed 5 hours online per day now here i stay at least 8 sometimes reaching 10+ hours. Restrictions and rules help.
Unfortunately ever since last year around october i started to feel a certain anger towards the rude peasantry that walks in my room,my energy drains rapidly if i sit for hours in vain,maybe one or two privates from time to time. What kills meSmiley (N) the most is the waiting,eternal waiting for the type of member that takes out the best in me. Smiley :8 IS WRONG i know ...i should fake it til i make it believable and i should not care about how they are,afterall is my interest to have everyone's money not just a certain type that makes me feel good besides the financial side. I can spend 6 hours which i did with people in private both show and talking about anything really, i have patience for listening and giving advices,discovering someone,i kinda take it and took it to a deeper level and thats what i try to target...lately i cant have the law of attraction on my side because of how i feel,hence i cant attract that anymore.Smiley :O
I think i have a little mental breakdown and its very visible ...
My question is...how do i get back on the horse again? How can i strenghten my tolerance and patience,how can a girl who's more glamour than porno reduce the waiting time and attract again more into her room,also the "right guys" ? I would be greatful to hear your input,struggles and recommendations. Thank you and have a lovely shift!
P.S: an extended vacation ( 2weeks+ ) isnt possible,not at the moment,and i need to be strong for at least another 1,5 years.